I Went to the doctors today, Told my case manager how i have been having a lot of anxiety problems at work. I'm suppose to pay attention to see what is different about work that makes me have axiety....
I think its when I feel overwhemled like when I know I have a lot of work ahead of me.

Also, They upped my dose of Depkote...they like want me to take a 500mg dose in the morning and another at night..so thats 1,000 mgs a day.
Next month they will draw blood to see how well my body metabolizes the medicine i think thats what they do.

I FINALLY went and did some Christmas shopping for the kids, I bought the twins something called "dusty the talking vacumm cleaner" since they broke my vacum trying to play with it..I decided to get them that..its mostly tre that likes to vacum but You can't get one one thing without the other having one too..
Then I bought Dakota a TowTruck that lights up and stuff..I thought he would like that since he knows his "Daddy" Drives one around Virginia right now..anyway.
I also bought the kids "Shrek 2" DVD. and I bought the babies a Bear in the Big Blue house its one thats called "Potty Time" since its Nearly time for them to start getting interested in the potty..(i'm going to offically Start potty training in march when they turn 3)...and I also bought Dakota a "cailou" tape (if u don't know, Cailou is a cartoon that comes on PBS.
*singing* I'm just a kid who's four, each day i'm growing more, I like exploring i'm cailou, my world is turning changing each day, with mommy and daddy and finding my way. *etc...etc..etc...* haha...*/end singing* I forgot some of the song.
Ha I can't believe i forgot some of the song..as much as I listen to it on nearly a daily basis...i'm sure i'll be listening to it even more now that i have a dvd..but really the reason i went ahead and got the DVD is because Digital might go by by which means The kids can't watch "On-Demand" anymore. What am I going to do....they are so use to watching it..I tried to prepare my kids for when we don't have it anymore by telling him the other day that we don't get that anymore and he was like Yeah uh huh, turn it on channel 199...
and i said we dont' have it ! he said Letme see..so he got the remote and turned it on the channel himself..he is like see! Mommy push the buttons for cailou to come on! Damn he is too smart sometimes! *lol*
Well he will just have to learn to live without digital soon...cuz mommy gotta start cutting back. Job security isn't what it use to be plus, come tax time i have to get a car which means at the very least i'll have about 60 bucks a month give or take some in car insurance plus upkeep.....uhgh! I am having a very very hard time payin my bills now..i don't know what to think aabout adding a car to that stack of bills.....Lord only knows.
I did it before I guess i'll be able to do it again. hopefully. ;0